How does a mom let go!!??

About a week ago driving my 20 year old (no drivers license yet because of his own laziness) told me "Mom, after my 21st birthday I am moving to upstate NY . My first thought was ... yeah ok, he needs me to do his laundry, he hates being away from home longer than 2 days. But as he was speaking I heard the passion in his voice. I need to reverse in order for this to be understood. About 9 years back, I had issues with myself, I knew he had to go to my ex husband for a while. I had to be able to take care of me before I can give a thousand percent to my children. Although it broke my heart~all of them went to NY to live with their Dad. My oldest 2 eventually moved out and got their own lives. My eldest son 27 is living very well on his own self supportive and has a fantastic job in the  city and in school paid by the company he works for.. also union employed. My daughter 25, now a mom of her own living in Jersey with her fiance, and a happy family. My 23 yr old he is not on the wrong track but also still unsure where life is going to take him. I also have joint custody of my 13 year old daughter. Lives with her Dad, who still lives in his parents house... that again in a future blog. Now when I moved back to NY in 09.. Joseph was having issues in all situations. I tried to have him in therapy and he was not having it.. I had him in school speaking with his guidance counselor on a regular basis. Joseph was not  giving a rats ____ about anything dealing with rules. If they said left~ he went right. I knew at that point if I didn't take control it was only going to get worse. That is when I signed him into Military School. Joseph went away for 6 months. I wrote him everyday. Spoke to him once a week. At the end he thanked me for doing it. Graduated with a HS Diploma. He then moved in with me. Joseph's dream was culinary school.. I.C.E. We went back and forth so many times. My credit was shot due to my ex and other issues. I asked family members if they would co-sign for school. Lots of them said YES we will be there!! Of course!!! Until the day where it came down to signing the paper work. Everyone backed out. It broke his spirit and broke my heart. The dis appointment was all over his face-attitude-EVERYTHING.. I then said we save up and try again in a few years. Fast forward 6 months. This is when he said (and again with so much passion) I am moving upstate after my birthday. I said "Nope-you are NOT!" Joseph then said " I have to grow up, I have to try, I can't live with you forever!"  He has everything mapped out, getting his dl before he leaves, taking a transfer from his job. Also saving up $$ a few months rent  before he leaves. How do I let my son go??!! My heart is breaking.. I know he wants it and I know he is going to follow through. I know it is a drive away (3 1/2 hours) but how do you let them go? How do I not cry and wonder will he be ok...This will be a blog... a soap opera.. a drama and a comedy!!! To be continued....

Your loss!!!!! Think of the little ppl too!!!

I have joined a giveaway service where you blog about the items.. I am new at this and whatever reviews I have done.. I have done well. These bloggers that get chosen , it is like a FELL TIME job. You have to blog on FB~Twitter~Amazon~HERE~and other social networks. On my last day off I reviewed 3 products. It took me OVER 6 hours between the blog~ photos~ and honest reviews. I am not the type of person to copy and paste my reviews. I feel with each social website.. you have to make it eye catching to grab their attention. If I wasn't fond of it.. I don't give it a HORRID review, I say "Just wan't for me" I give it 3 starts and explain why. I pay for shipping and it is pissing me off since I am new at this, the ones that are "important to me" and I would love to try...I am being bypassed. I guess it wasn't meant to happen. OR I am not as popular as they want me to be. I am sorry if I keep my blogs honest. I have a "boring" life in their eyes. I feel as I am being JUDGED even at this age.. If you are not the popular one (meaning over a million follows) you're not good enough.. Well which ever ones I get chosen for I thank you.. but the others... If you want a million dollar company, you take the ones with the smaller views.. and they get read by the "real ppl" and maybe your products will be purchased by the 40~somethings and their co~workers~or their neighbors!! Or by word of mouth.As for this website.. I will finish out the month and I am done.. Too old to be chosen by how popular I am or am not!!! My family~friends and co~worker.. they accept my opinion and do purchase things I tell them do work. Oh and btw I work in the service industry and see MANY different ppl a day.. The products I have tried AND worked well... LARGE companies.. Word of mouth and good reviews from the small person.. MAKES your companies what they are!!! So dn't judge!! My rant is over.. This Grandma and mom and employee and fiance and dog owner and pta mom is going back to blogging about "real life and real life situations" I am done being the guinea pig to help others get rich with $$$ I am rich from love from my family and friends!!!! 

It is an EARLY (for me at least) Saturday afternoon. I have to be at work at 1:45. In order for my day to start off well. I need to wake up a few hours earlier to "do coffee, read and respond to emails, and of course~listen to the news! I am trying to figure out~ why tips (if you have read my intro, I am a server for a huge corp.) have been sooo BAD!! I am so not patting myself on the back. I have high sales, most "call parties" and just all way round , I love my job and hardly ever complain. I make $5.00 and hour and with (100%) my tips being taxed. Lately I have not been covering my 1/2 of the bills.. Even though I go out of my way, EVERYDAY- hopefully doing a 10 hour shift.. If I walk away with $250 or more YA.. if not.. Just a BAD MONTH!! My other "off news" I received my new work shoes (3 pair) I was wearing them during the week, to the super market, running my errands, walking the dogs. I thought they were ready. One hour into my shift last night.. I wanted to throw those shoes into the road!! or do the rest of my shift.. in my socks. Me always being prepared~ I had my old work shoes in the trunk. The only issue with those.. I have to wear 2 pair of socks! I am not a 6 (kinda small) not a 6 1/2 (kinda big).. So what size can I get and be happy with!!?? After I got home, I did the ice bag "thing". I took them out of the freezer this morning.. One of the shoes (rather bags)must've had a leak... I now have an ice cube in the shape of a size 6 shoe!!! LMAO!! Debating whether I should save it for my son who ALWAYS need ice in his drinks.. I think I am going to save this for Sh#$s and giggles.. I will be bringing both the new and the old and switch off through out my shift! For the rest of the week, no breaks. My daughter and grandson will be here tomorrow night. My daughter is looking for a job in NY~ unfortunately it isn't working out with her fiance. My oldest son offered her his spare bedroom to stay~rent free~ until she gets on her feet. I don't have a free day nest week. If is full of~ interviews for my daughter~ vet appointments for my Bonston Terriers~ EVENTUALLY finish remodeling (YES FINISH.. for my bday I asked for my kitchen to be repainted and update it) the cabinet doors and put them back up, lay the floor and call it a day. Ugh wishful thinking. It is now time for me to day "til next time" If anyone has any ideas how to break in shoes.. comment please. I tried the ice bag, the microwave and the 2 x socks.. Either way, have a great weekend. Til next time!!
PS. Review for "eye tear stain remover for dogs" coming within the next 2 days!! Have a FAB DAY!!

  

They came today!!!!

Soft Cotton&Silk Blend Eye Mask With FREE Ear Plugs!!! They came today!!!! I used them this afternoon after a DR appointment at 8AM.. Came home to chaos.. Children arguing-dogs playing and barking.. I was exhausted!! Went into my room.. Put on my eye mask.. ear plugs and I was put withing 10 min.. 3 hours later (still on and ) WELL RESTED!!!  of course  tonight I will be using them! Summer is here. With my children (ha! 1 is 20 years old) being teens. They pull all nighters. I on the other hand 12 is (or try to be) the latest I go to sleep. For starters I like how it can be adjusted to how tight I would like them!! Velcro. I so far am in LOVE with this!! I will post photos.. and I will let you know if it was a success!!! SO FAR HAPPY m0m0f05.. looking forward to a GREAT night sleep!!! If you would love to order use reference  pmd34ff18d819ea9dfeda0f638eae589f0 

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Hooray for me.. The reason why I am making the blog... I start my 1st product review   in the next couple of days. The job I have gives me insomnia. Some-days I don't sleep at all. I will be reviewing the Soft Cotton&Silk Blend Eye Mask With FREE Ear Plugs. and it being summer and the children with no curfew (rather 1:30ish) I go to sleep way earlier. With the noise and the bathroom lights going on and off, this could be the answer to my prayers!! As soon as I receive it.. I will review it.. good~bad or otherwise!! Keeping my fingers on this one and jopefully it REALLY WORKS!!!

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It is a hot Sunday afternoon here in Queens. It is my day off before I start a grueling week at ___ ( a place I will not mention.. yet). I am a server and have been doing it for almost 20 years. I attempted to go to college for nursing, but I become too emotionally involved with people. Being straight faced in a trauma situation, not for me. I respect all in that industry. I was going (and eventually will) to use this page to review products, but I think it is going to be my "just because" page. 
This week at work, tough to say the least. Lots of ppl I respect and love working with are leaving. For better opportunities~just being fed up~ or "just because".  I was contemplating on making the move, but not just yet. I know in my heart when the time is right, I will go. This coming week is going to be 6 shifts and 2 of them are doubles. I am hoping that it will be enough to put away for a 3 day mini vacation with my  2 daughters and grandson. I was going to rent a camper with my "fiance" and go tour  (a 3 day tour LOL) Mystic Connecticut. My 13 year old wants to do aquarium visits... We are going to the NY Aquarium on Thursday... next week the one in Riverhead. An unfortunate situation happened last Thursday. I have this "thing" being divorced and in an 8 year relationship~ I want to do things as a family. We were going to go to Adventureland~my  "fiance" my daughter~ my son (20 year old) and myself. My other son (23) called me an hour before we were leaving and asked if he can join. I said absolutely. My "fiance" threw a fit. Making excuses- we aren't all going to fit in the car, it is too many ppl not enough room... blagh blagh.. I said it will be 10 min TOTAL with 5 ppl in the car.. he backed out and said "No I won't go". My thoughts are if he is going to through a fit over a 5 minute drive.. who is to say after we pay $1000 for the camper, he is not going to say.. I changed my mind.. I dnt want to go ..etc etc. SO NOW.. I am going to rent a car and go to Ocean City Maryland!! We have never been and it would be someplace looks like fun!! 
Again I am new at this.. I will ne posting "just because" when I can. BBQ grill is calling and my "chef hat" goes on and the dinner bell will be calling in about an hour!! 
Post comments if you would like and give me ideas on where to go and what to do for the last week in Aug.. Is Maryland a good place to go ?? Or should i try to make plans for another destination?

  

My intro!!

Everyone welcomed to my blog spot..My name is Rita and I will be turning 47 (physically~mentally 21 ... again)on July 4th!!. I am a happy divorced mom of 5 and Grandma of 1 (so far). and a momma to 2 Boston Terriers  I am a professional waitress~ server.. and proud of it.. It has supported my children's lives and mine. I love meeting new people on a regular basis. I feel in my line of work, sometimes tough (because you can't please ppl who have it set in their mind~life sucks.. and try to pass the poison on) I am starting their night out on a great note or finishing their long day with a dinner and a cocktail. OK enough about me... I am doing this blog because I am a sort of "Mom~Friend~Co~Worker" that will be the 1st one to try the newest items out there and by word of mouth~ OMG You gotta try_____ " or I get "what did you use in your hair  to get: the curls- color- style?' I would love to apply for new prducts out there.. build up my followers. Give my opinion with pictures and videos. If I am asked to do a party, I will do the party as long as I have enough to go around for all to attend! So this is about me.. what I would like to do in my blogs and hopefully try out some items and blog about them!!! 

I will keep you posted it I am approved!!!!